im tired of being different
i hear the ways people talk about me
and the way they talk to me
they almost baby-talk me
and it
drives me insane
im bad with my words
and im bad at expressing my emotions
im fairly certain i have adhd or autism
or maybe both
theres some stuff that says people born prematuraly have a higher chance of having these issues
and im not sure i have to explain how that connects to me to you
and most of my friends have ADHD as well
theres something about being a pack animal somewhere in there
i just want to be normal
im tired of having to be different
and any time i say something like that
youre going to say
that everybody is different
and of course thats true
but
im different in a different way
if that even makes sense
it probably doesnt
it makes sense to me
but most things that make sense to me make sense to you
and most things that make sense to you dont make sense to me
but i pretend that they do
and i try to figure out what you want
because i dont want you to be upset with me
im sorry i cause so many problems
i just
am sick of being me