im tired of being different

i hear the ways people talk about me

and the way they talk to me

they almost baby-talk me

and it

drives me insane

im bad with my words

and im bad at expressing my emotions

im fairly certain i have adhd or autism

or maybe both

theres some stuff that says people born prematuraly have a higher chance of having these issues

and im not sure i have to explain how that connects to me to you

and most of my friends have ADHD as well

theres something about being a pack animal somewhere in there

i just want to be normal

im tired of having to be different

and any time i say something like that

youre going to say

that everybody is different

and of course thats true

but

im different in a different way

if that even makes sense

it probably doesnt

it makes sense to me

but most things that make sense to me make sense to you

and most things that make sense to you dont make sense to me

but i pretend that they do

and i try to figure out what you want

because i dont want you to be upset with me

im sorry i cause so many problems

i just

am sick of being me